Emptiness

Ah Ci is following her daddy back to hometown tonight. I just can't help when she said ' mum promise me you won't cry when I am not around" Tears flow out of my eyes vulnerably.Not being used to sleep without her beside me. Life is an emptiness when my little princess is not around.

Hope I can sleep well, and God please guide them of safety to the destination.

I miss you so deeply my girl.

Ah Min 说世杯决赛

这两只队伍，一支是由俩个豪门弃兵的十号Wesley Sneijder,与十一号的Ruben为支柱的荷兰，一支是华丽的西班牙。橙色小国对垒足球大国西班牙，如果荷兰胜出，那可是小兵立大功，像童话故事的令人振奋。可能为欧洲的经济低迷带来正面的影响。

荷兰是赛前没被看好的队伍，但续伟大的巴西与阿根廷都泪泣球场，荷兰已渐入头角，Sneijder 实力爆发，近几个月来已经帮国际米兰赢了几个国际荣誉。当初把他卖掉的皇马球会会不会用当初卖掉他的十倍价钱买回他？当然年轻又面相老陈的十一号Ruben也是大功臣，世杯荷兰夺不夺冠，这俩个26 岁的小子，也已明扬四海，身价百倍。

西班牙有人把他比喻为mercedes 骄车，名贵而实际，应该可以走到最后，这支对伍多个球员来至豪门球会，身价非凡，个个传球，射门，看守，团队精神都是一流水准，如果真输给荷兰，也应该是造化弄人，上帝开玩笑，mercedes掉入小水沟，天意天意。

这样一场比赛，你希望谁会胜出？喜欢童话成真的人希望橙海淹没斗牛士，青蛙变王子。我本人不喜欢超现实戏集。实力加明牌的组合，一分钱一分货的漂亮西班牙，加油！

看保罗天才八爪鱼的预测：------


2010 年的世杯，好精彩！

Ah CI and her hobby

Ah Ci like her drawing and she can spend long hours concentrete on her craft thing, may it be a bookmark, or small greeting card. One topic she like to write is ' l give mum, l love mum', she has since making a lot of thing for me. When she examine her act work, and she so satisfied with it, and the only person she want to present to is me, her mum. Sometimes when her dad scold her for some mistake, she would start to write something in a piece of paper, and later on she will showing me, ' no love dad ' with symbol and colours. Which I find it quite unique, because she make drawings as her source of expression of emotions.

But recently Ah Ci had been transfer her enthusiasm in craft to her television, she have been addicted to the television day and night, as long as she wake up she would automatically switch on the TV and stick the face onto it for hours. Seeing this may not be a healthy hobbies for a 6 years old child, I would restrict her time for watching, and try my best to distract her attention by sending her some tasks which she would not normally do, like cleaning the floor, tidy the room etc

Chinese saying it take 3 days to learn the bad habib and it take 3 years to learn a good one. My lesson is to try to avoid those bad hobby because it hard to get rid of once addicted.

2010 must be better

It is quite ironic when I decided to quit my post, here am I now writing another post, I guess that is what blogging is about, when you feel that you have no one to talk to you, but you got all those in your stomach difficult to digest and even voice out to anyone. Here is it, here is the place to let out the fuss.For those who read my blog especially i think there are 2 or 3 my fellow friend only. Thank you and sorry have make your read this crap. It is quite ironic when I read my new year resolution and wishes, I see a clear and bright sunset which my fellow friend Ah Kean choose to see in 1.1.2010. Yet now is about the middle of January and all I have is disappointments. I think entitled or not a company or a boss should be responsible for the spirit of the worker in a whole, not because for the worker but for the company's benefit alone.Unmotivated employee tend to do fault and mistake, and that is not a good start for any business. I remember I always have these question same as recently one of my facebook fellow post, -why you always cannot get what you want?? the thing you most wish is the thing that Never come to you. And most gift come to you unexpected.and might not as what you want. It is quite ironic when i decided to quit my facebook game, now all that happen is forcing me to the game even deeper.I understand the reason for addicted druggie can't quit the shit because there are no hope in their life. I don;t think the drug itself have any merit and attraction at all. Come bring hope to people life, any human who is living happily is entitled to spread happiness around, there are too many hopeless creature around now, haiti is devastated, europe is freezing, Malaysia is clueless into deeper bodohland. Yet what I hope is 2010 must be better, and you think I will get what I fight for this time?

The End

I was thinking all about the end of my blogspot post recently many many times. First of all, because thinking of stealing a spare time to write some post at night is not a viable thing. One lesson in life--- you can't get a thing done, without sacrifice another thing. My daughter had been addicted to TV after i start my blogspot and facebook.Worst of all, she started to dislike her school too. Which i account for all her mislead due to my lack of attention to her, she had been late to sleep, from 9.30pm to 11.30pm and 11.30pm is a very late for a 5 years old. I have heard some very disappoints view of Malaysian politic from some young 20+, saying no matter how we are doing, the Malaysian Chinese will remain the same. So from this, she/he would no want to spend time bother about our society, no even care about any issues which could affect our daily doing. Its sad. These indifferent is causing our future darker,our hope for better tomorrow dimmer. Out of this disappointment, may be i should just quit writing anymore, and just concentrate on what my duty is, a housewife and a mother. Good bye and thank you for those who happen to be reading my post quite accidentally. So this is THE END

Mission for 2010

Every blogger will write something about 2009, because the time now is 12.18pm 31.12.2009 the last day of 2009 I do not have anything to talk about 2009, just speak the good thing,don;t say the bad thing, so i don;t talk about the pass, i will talk about future. In the future :- I hope I can be a better mother, that mean full time, or at least part time. I hope I can be a better writer, that mean I need to write and firstly read a lot. I hope I can less depend on money, it make people feel and look ugly. I hope my daughter, dad, mum, grand mum, and everyone healthy and happy in everything they do. I hope my job can be more smooth,at least no debtors who is bad enough to scold. I hope the world is less with illness, and war and hatred. I hope people will not die. I think i should not be over wishes for those almost impossible. OK , just wish that i can be improved in my language and social skills. Be more happy. Happy New Year 2010 to all, wish you have a great and prosperous new year ahead.

The Lists

Loan Loan Loan Just found out if I refinance my home loan, i would actually cut my monthly instalment by RM220, but i need to pay RM10,000 for the transfer fees and penalty charges for undue settlement....difficult decision to make...but the interest really go down 1% refinance or not leh??? =============================================================================== Exam is round the corner Ah Ci is almost near exam time lately, but testing her knowledge of the topic of her book and realise she is not that familiar of her reading and writing. Is it me who spend too little time with her for revision? expect her not doing well for the exam. I think I lack of time after work to did that, if I do I would sacrified time for my blog....how to do? ================================================================================ Wednesday My colleage knows I dislike Wednesday, when come to this day, my mood is dull, my eye is dull, I feel I just want spend my time alone and if possible stay in house all day and don;t want to talk, you ask me why, I can;t give you any answer, may be because it is the mid day of the week, and because it is the most unhopeful day of the week, or may be my energy just drain out during this day.And today is Wednesday. ================================================================================ Opportunity I see my colleage getting a good offer to be employer of his own, by owning a new company. First is that happy for him, second is well he is so lucky. So many people do not have this chances even how much they desperate to be.I think opportunity is the best that can be offer to any employee in a company, and I wish I have an equal of that. ================================================================================= Happy parent Happy that parent have been safely reach hometown, and live as they prefer to live, i think every person should at least have the freedom to choose how they want to live for whatever reason they like. Hope they happy now. ================================================================================== Happy blogging to all

Update

24/10/09 Went to One Utama shopping for Ah Ci's concert head's decoration. 25/10/09 Busy for Ah Ci's concert preparation, and at 1pm arrived early for the concert. End show at 5.30pm. Well done for Ah Ci. Nice dance performance, but getting humiliated a bit for the fashion show, which get extra attention for her shape compare to other kids. Determined to weigh-cut Ah Ci for her self confident'sack. 26/10/09 Exhausted after busy weekend. Getting more busy by auditor's questioning of 2009's financial account. Long queue workload need to be clear for the auditor's, greatly dreaming of some helping hands. 27/10/09 More busy 28/10/09 Two colleage absent due to Medical reason. Food poisoning by overnight curry, I am lucky enough to escape the poison, yet no lucky enough to escape the workload left by them. 29/10/09 2 days more for parent to flight back to hometown. Need to plan a good farewell dinner may be tomorrow night. Must search for a nice restaurant. 30/10/09 Plan to spend a night in sister's place, chit chat together with parent and grandmum. 31/10/09 Bit goodbye to parent for going back home. 1/11/09 More busy pending ahead..... Things to do:- refinance my current property, the interest rate is getting way to low, not worth it to stay with the current loan unless do some discussion with the branch manager about lowering the interest to BLR-1.5 or at least 1.25% . Last choice for me is to jump to Public Bank and refinance the whole loan. Withdraw from KWSP account 2. Looking for some nice place to spend week length holiday which I deserve after years and years of non-holidays.Or I would feel more zombie then ever.

good quotes

It is not the mountain we conquer but ourselves - on confidence To be successful you have to develop a hunger for it.-on winning Giving up is the ultimate tragedy-on tenacity When a man is no longer anxious to do better than well, he is done for.-on quality No man ever yet became great by imitation.-on imitation Never put off till tomorrow what you can do today.-on time Give help rather than advice. Wisdom is to understand that the world is ever-changing. Teamwork-where there is unity there is always victory Education- when the student is ready, the master appears Change - we cannot direct the wind, but we can adjust the sails. Creativity-some people dream of success...while others wake up and work hard at it. Opportunity-You'll always miss 100% of the shots you don't take. Excellence-The difference between ordinary and extraordinary is the little extra. Integrity-A person of great integrity gains the respect from everyone.

update

10/9/09 adsense account decline my application, giving the reason my blog is lack of topic. Thought is easy to apply for adsense. Anyway nothing is free in this world, got to put a little hard work in blogging. 11/9/09 have gastric very often lately...i think should be the eating habit, because never happen before in last company where eating time is fixed. 12/9/09 having playing game and game, and it is a never ending road, finish this one, and hook to the next one. Still in mind that i would end it one day, but it never happen. I am addicted. 13/9/09 Anyone know where to find The Lake House movie??or anyone can lend me a copy if you have it? 14/9/09 seeing an old colleage, alway hoping he/she will be enjoying a better future. Fed up with recent management of double standard and misjudgement. 15/9/09 got a lot to voice out for MCA politic but too dissappointed until not willing to write anything, Last :- MCA can you stop using this name? because you are not represent the C but your own businessman agenda and it is embarrassing to see the headline everyday,with one unfaithfully horny old man and a so called revolutionist and it is a waste of the newspaper column, would not want to spend even RM1.50 to buy one. 16/9/09 would anyone tell me what 1 malaysia mean? should we just cancel the bumi and non bumi quota??to reflex the 1 and make it real Malaysia? 17/9/09 sleepy now, i alway got idea suddenly turn on in my head, and i tell myself i will write it in my blog, yet i left with little to say when come to my blog. .... I think i need to read more...have buy two reader digest from popular bookstore, after getting inspiration from Ah Hung, but just manage to read fews article from it...thinking will find a good one to share it here.

No topic

I know I need determination to write a blog. Yet there are simply too many temptation not to be missed. I had recently busy 'building' up my farm so as to let it obtain its require size and stage as to improve its ability to gain more wealth and coins to get to the maximum potention as in any rat race happens to all of the rich and poor man in this world.

I will let my farm earn money for me, when I reach the top stage. In order to do this, first I must sacrificed my time to blog first.So sorry for no much posting lately.

If you know me, you will probably query why a non-gamer, will addicted to the race, come join me for this game.....

Yes, if you have guess right, I am playing the 'Farmtown'.

Question

1. Is today's youngster more immoral compare to the youngster 15 years ago??I mean those born after 1980... 2. If you are more 'licin' and 'gilap' your boss shoes, will he know it that you are actually 'gilap' his shoes because you just want money, or even he know it, because you 'gilap' his shoes he feel good and hence let you gilap more...? 3. If I say 98% of those 12-38 years old now are having facebook account, and out of this 58% is playing the facebook game, and 38% from this 58% is super addicted to the game, am i exagerate the percentage? 4. In the business world, Money is the upmost king, hence no matter a rich guy say anything is consider right, even if what he say is no true, and boring, there will alway be supporter to give echo, If i am not buying this, does it make me abnormal? 5. If the government cannot effort to give high pay for police force, can we accept that police should take bride? well, you must consider that they got family to look after, wife and kids to feed... 6. If a rich community is full of thief and robbery happen everyday, cases after cases, day after day, the police don't got enough cabinet for the case file, and no enough PC's hard drive to store the crime data, is it actually 'correct' that the thing stolen is rightfully be stolen for those criminal??Well, we are talking about sharing wealth, and equal opportunity ... 7. If one effort driving a Mercedes, or a BMW 5 series, yet, still sending the kids to go to nursery and not being able to spend own time looking after them, can we give them a praise or a woe? 8.If you have RM 10 billions what will you do? 9. If you can have one more life, who will you give it to? 10.If Malaysia is not yet born, would you support it to be independent, and run like how it is run by the goverment now? 11. If pakatan rakyat is to win the next general election, do you think the new government can really bring a change and equality to minority group like the poor, chinese society, native group? 12. Last, do you think I will become rich one day by working with a company and trying to save as much as possible?

Mission posssible

Tonight I get the feeling of a lot mission need to be done by tomorrow whether I like it or not. I brainstorming .... firstly, I need to go to A bank to bank in my July's salary cheque (yes, our company only give salary on the 8th) in order that it can be clear by Monday, so I can pay off my loan subsequently. Secondly, I need to reload my phone, I will get extra 30% if I do it by tomorrow, thirth I need to buy some items at C store because the promotion almost over,I get to save around 50% if buy it this week. Forth, I have to return Ah Ci's too-small-size jacket simply because the shop will not allow the return after that at Sunway Piramid. It look like I got a lot of choices on the decision for what I want to do, but I feel that it is the offers or condition or the timeline which 'planned' for me, given me choiceless but to 'obey' it.

I worked a 5 and half day per week, left only one and half day for private family life, and what I do is to let the condition set on what I should do...how sad this life is....well, i think a lot of people live a life same like me. Weekend is just a lot of shopping, eating and watching movies.

Can't it be more meaningful weekend for City folk like us???

Facebook

Well, what is the good of facebook when we cannot share information with friend and others?isn't it the place for us to voice out whatever in our mind and isn't it another mean to share news and events? But I did deactivate and abundant my facebook account recently, just because there are something which cannot be share among the friends. So frustrated.Recently it has not been a smooth way for communication, i think this month i need to go back to temple praying for God's messy. The main reason behind this is facebook create so many game for friends to play, many youngster now register facebook for the gaming fun of it. You can add friend to get ingredient in the Restourant City, you can steal fruit in The happy farm, you can fishing in the Fish a Fish game. Many people unwillingly hooked to it. So the facebook is becoming a gaming area for them. Who care what is the real purpose of facebook. What is happening is when someone who is seriously posting thought and news and photos to it become unprotectly expose too much information unnecessary to others. And what if this all come back to you in an unfavourable way? Ie. you get complain for your post, someone want to sue you for what you frankly phase out in the facebook etc. I have never think of such thing when i first sign up for it. All community has their rules, we have to responsible for what we say, facebook is no exception. We are bind by that when we sign up. So next time just shout at the bathroom duing shower, don;t post anything which may be publish publicly, these tend to get yourself into a lot of trouble consequently. Trust me on this.

I like this episode of the X-files < the Final >

MULDER: I'd like to congratulate you on succeeding where so many before you have failed. A bullet between the eyes would have been preferable to this charade. But I've learned to pretend over the past nine years - to pretend that my victories mattered only to realize that no one was keeping score. To realize that liars do not fear the truth if there are enough liars. That the devil is just one man with a plan but evil, true evil, is a collaboration of men which is what we have here today. If I am a guilty man, my crime is in daring to believe that the truth will out and that no one lie can live forever. I believe it still. Much as you try to bury it, the truth is out there. Greater than your lies, the truth wants to be known. You will know it. It'll come to you, as it's come to me faster than the speed of light.

(for those who understand what I imply....what goes around, come around)

Episode : This is not happening ( For my godgrandmother who leave us to meet God yesterday)

SCULLY: I once had a talk with Mulder about starlight. How it's billions of years old. Stars that are now long dead whose light is still traveling through time. It won't die, that light. Maybe that's the only thing that never does. He said that's where souls reside. I hope he's right.

ok, now i got a name set for my blog...

Long ago i tell my facebook friend that i will start my blog , so to start ,actually i do not have anything to write on the blog tonight , yet i should start something , walking miles startes from first steps...so here i go,...should i use english or mandarin? well, both also 'half basin water', if i want to write in english i might need to buy a dictionary first to accompany me, who want to read a blog with out understand what the blogger want to say....if i write in mandarin, then i might need to bring my primary school teacher sitting here with me...hai, all the education system's faults, study primary school in mandarin, secondary school in bahasa, college in english, now i got my education background introduced.