这首歌好悲。。。听了常让我哭

Confident

When we say confidential, meaning something which is private and not suppose to disclose to anyone except the concerned. When we talk about self estreem or confident to ourself, how we really mean? If a person so much stubborn or holdon to his believe with him/herself, did that mean also he/she is over confident with him/herself? Tonight I got a date with an old friend, seeing me in his eye looking a lot of good changes, new hairstyle, new car, kid etc is giving me undescribed encouragement, It is so glad to be improved in others eyes. It feel good that way. Can I sustain my progess this way? Can I maintain my look as It never get old, can I improve in a pace constantly overwin others? Is this material substance directly impact other's self confident, and hence our outlook as a person? I have no answer to this. My buddhist teaching said 'nothing is matter than our heart,we must alway look after our heart', when our heart is greed and sinful, it doesn;t matter how much achievement we have, how great we are. We are just left with an artificial skin, fake mask that look good on the outside but deterior on the inside. I believe that is true. That is what keep me humble all these time. I hope this attitude is right.

Mission posssible

Tonight I get the feeling of a lot mission need to be done by tomorrow whether I like it or not. I brainstorming .... firstly, I need to go to A bank to bank in my July's salary cheque (yes, our company only give salary on the 8th) in order that it can be clear by Monday, so I can pay off my loan subsequently. Secondly, I need to reload my phone, I will get extra 30% if I do it by tomorrow, thirth I need to buy some items at C store because the promotion almost over,I get to save around 50% if buy it this week. Forth, I have to return Ah Ci's too-small-size jacket simply because the shop will not allow the return after that at Sunway Piramid. It look like I got a lot of choices on the decision for what I want to do, but I feel that it is the offers or condition or the timeline which 'planned' for me, given me choiceless but to 'obey' it.

I worked a 5 and half day per week, left only one and half day for private family life, and what I do is to let the condition set on what I should do...how sad this life is....well, i think a lot of people live a life same like me. Weekend is just a lot of shopping, eating and watching movies.

Can't it be more meaningful weekend for City folk like us???

Facebook

Well, what is the good of facebook when we cannot share information with friend and others?isn't it the place for us to voice out whatever in our mind and isn't it another mean to share news and events? But I did deactivate and abundant my facebook account recently, just because there are something which cannot be share among the friends. So frustrated.Recently it has not been a smooth way for communication, i think this month i need to go back to temple praying for God's messy. The main reason behind this is facebook create so many game for friends to play, many youngster now register facebook for the gaming fun of it. You can add friend to get ingredient in the Restourant City, you can steal fruit in The happy farm, you can fishing in the Fish a Fish game. Many people unwillingly hooked to it. So the facebook is becoming a gaming area for them. Who care what is the real purpose of facebook. What is happening is when someone who is seriously posting thought and news and photos to it become unprotectly expose too much information unnecessary to others. And what if this all come back to you in an unfavourable way? Ie. you get complain for your post, someone want to sue you for what you frankly phase out in the facebook etc. I have never think of such thing when i first sign up for it. All community has their rules, we have to responsible for what we say, facebook is no exception. We are bind by that when we sign up. So next time just shout at the bathroom duing shower, don;t post anything which may be publish publicly, these tend to get yourself into a lot of trouble consequently. Trust me on this.

I like this episode of the X-files < the Final >

MULDER: I'd like to congratulate you on succeeding where so many before you have failed. A bullet between the eyes would have been preferable to this charade. But I've learned to pretend over the past nine years - to pretend that my victories mattered only to realize that no one was keeping score. To realize that liars do not fear the truth if there are enough liars. That the devil is just one man with a plan but evil, true evil, is a collaboration of men which is what we have here today. If I am a guilty man, my crime is in daring to believe that the truth will out and that no one lie can live forever. I believe it still. Much as you try to bury it, the truth is out there. Greater than your lies, the truth wants to be known. You will know it. It'll come to you, as it's come to me faster than the speed of light.

(for those who understand what I imply....what goes around, come around)

Episode : This is not happening ( For my godgrandmother who leave us to meet God yesterday)

SCULLY: I once had a talk with Mulder about starlight. How it's billions of years old. Stars that are now long dead whose light is still traveling through time. It won't die, that light. Maybe that's the only thing that never does. He said that's where souls reside. I hope he's right.