贪生怕死的女人

年龄过了三十，我开始怕死，怕自己会中癌，怕不辛会驾车意外，驾车时速五十送女兒上学，怕会被公司裁员没饭开会死。怕自己会变老。

往年的洒脱，一个背包走天涯，惊觉那是家人背后无私的付出与支持，我才能左无旁顾的到处流浪。

当了妈妈之后，带个小瓜，我开始左怕右怕，不为了什么，只怕自己有什么事，那这小瓜没人照顾了，怎么办？驾驶电单车飞奔的狂野已荡然无存。现在我已是个贪生怕死的女人。

学Yossi。。。来一首歌~~~




Sometimes late at nightI lie awake and watch her sleeping

She's lost in peaceful dreamsSo I turn out the lights and lay there in the darkAnd the thought crosses my mindIf I never wake up in the morning

Would she ever doubt the way I feelAbout her in my heart


If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes


'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel


If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes


So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

怕

小希六年级，她怕考试失败。
表姑怕老来没人照顾。
阿洪怕年过三十，朋友都生孩子了，自己一个女友还没。
丽丽刚到三十五，孩子还没长大，可是事业又没突破，钱不够用。

于是，小希拼命读书。
于是，表姑很努力在存棺材本。
于是，阿洪不断充实自己，等一个能欣赏他的她。
于是，丽丽买了很多保险，每个月的薪金一半交了保费。

后来，小希果然没有失败，但长大了进入社会她才知道，一纸文凭没能给她保障。她又再怕会失业，于是小希又努力工作。

后来，表姑果然有很多钱，可是她又怕周围的人接近他是为了她的财富。于是，表姑常常对身边的人疑神疑鬼，结果她真的带了很多钱进了棺材。

后来，阿洪成了作家，出了五本书，还是王老五，而且是钻石级的。

后来，丽丽没得癌症，活到八十岁，白养了保险经纪。

因为害怕，所以我们做的很多，我们想要躲避不幸，我们希望借着努力，策划未来，但是人生却大多无奈，预期的往往不是得到的。

所以我们一生都不快乐。

我们不了解怎么生活，生命的价值在那里。

我们只是在害怕中不断的恶性循环。

最近有人跟我提到生命价值这个问题。不断思索后，还是没能得出结论。

朋友，你生命的价值在那里？