贪生怕死的女人

年龄过了三十，我开始怕死，怕自己会中癌，怕不辛会驾车意外，驾车时速五十送女兒上学，怕会被公司裁员没饭开会死。怕自己会变老。

往年的洒脱，一个背包走天涯，惊觉那是家人背后无私的付出与支持，我才能左无旁顾的到处流浪。

当了妈妈之后，带个小瓜，我开始左怕右怕，不为了什么，只怕自己有什么事，那这小瓜没人照顾了，怎么办？驾驶电单车飞奔的狂野已荡然无存。现在我已是个贪生怕死的女人。

学Yossi。。。来一首歌~~~




Sometimes late at nightI lie awake and watch her sleeping

She's lost in peaceful dreamsSo I turn out the lights and lay there in the darkAnd the thought crosses my mindIf I never wake up in the morning

Would she ever doubt the way I feelAbout her in my heart


If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes


'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel


If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes


So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

怕

小希六年级，她怕考试失败。
表姑怕老来没人照顾。
阿洪怕年过三十，朋友都生孩子了，自己一个女友还没。
丽丽刚到三十五，孩子还没长大，可是事业又没突破，钱不够用。

于是，小希拼命读书。
于是，表姑很努力在存棺材本。
于是，阿洪不断充实自己，等一个能欣赏他的她。
于是，丽丽买了很多保险，每个月的薪金一半交了保费。

后来，小希果然没有失败，但长大了进入社会她才知道，一纸文凭没能给她保障。她又再怕会失业，于是小希又努力工作。

后来，表姑果然有很多钱，可是她又怕周围的人接近他是为了她的财富。于是，表姑常常对身边的人疑神疑鬼，结果她真的带了很多钱进了棺材。

后来，阿洪成了作家，出了五本书，还是王老五，而且是钻石级的。

后来，丽丽没得癌症，活到八十岁，白养了保险经纪。

因为害怕，所以我们做的很多，我们想要躲避不幸，我们希望借着努力，策划未来，但是人生却大多无奈，预期的往往不是得到的。

所以我们一生都不快乐。

我们不了解怎么生活，生命的价值在那里。

我们只是在害怕中不断的恶性循环。

最近有人跟我提到生命价值这个问题。不断思索后，还是没能得出结论。

朋友，你生命的价值在那里？

Petrosains KLCC

Yesterday I plan a special outdoor trip as last week is a tension week for my daughter due to final term exam.

Ah Ci keep persuade her dad to bring her to Sunway Lagoon. as Sunway is kind of expensive at RM60 per adult and RM48 for children. I suggest we choose a cheaper destination KLCC Petrosains instead.

It turn out the science centre is a very fun place to bring a kid. You search the website or blog will most probably give you a brief information of the centre. The petrosains use a hand on approach and interative and fun way for kid to learn about general science. Yet the fundamental based for the centre is around petrosciences. It did so by providing a lot of simulator based equipment eg, tornado machine, plasma light, halogram light etc

After purchase ticket for RM24 for a family of two adult and two kids.We need to Q for entry via helmet like gondola trolley, which later the staff said is a oil drop shape dark ride. In the ride, we can see video display, and introduction of malaysia rainforest.The short ride end with a welcome staff at the real entrance of the centre.Ah Ci is relating the dark ride to the time machine of Doreamon.What an imagination of a six years old.!?

All the simulators has signboard attached to it and visitor can read the instruction on it before trying, and at the bottom part it will explain the theory part of the sciences involved in that particular simulator.
We try the hurricane simulator tube which is kind of exciting for everyone, the wind generate in the tube blow about 145KM/H which make me feel kind of out of control.I have to hold on to my spectacle as it almost fly away!!

It is so much fun bringing children to travel together or visit a new and exciting place.

传统良方

这两种药油有需为这打广告，很可能是常提重的东西，手指扭伤了，难好，老人常说是做月子期间洗手造成。尤其是晚上更是隐隐作痛，正骨水在这时好有效。我也常会皮肤割伤，肿胀。青草油一涂即可消肿，又可消炎，经济又实惠。

正骨水 青草油 果然是传统良方。大家不妨多试用。

Eat Pray Love

When you have a lot of money.

When you are the most prettiest woman or most handsome man in the world.

When you are the most powerful man in the Earth.

you still need to EAT PRAY LOVE

so fundamentally it still come to a human the basic need daily.

When you lost yourself look inside yourself-- is there anymore love left over ?

Do you still enjoy the food you used to like?

Have you try all the new recipe in the world?

Have you lost your inspiration to love?

Make a wish, hold a dream. Keep the faith. Pray.

Let go of yourself. Let's Eat Pray Love each others.

(well i am not copycat of Julia Robert, but the movie trailer do inspire me, too bad its not showing at USJ or  puchong )

Pangkor

sunset

sand & stone

fishing boats

baby shark meat noodle

rock

九月九日

今天有很多人乘这好意头的一天注册结婚，买屋子。长长久久多好呀！今天可以是很特别的日子，只要有心好好经营，可以让生命里多了一个纪念日。 今天要是用来开始寻觅真爱还来得及吗？要不要长长久久才觅到吧？！寻到了难道就能久久长长吗？用长长久久找到的真爱就能长长久久吗？或许真爱本质只是短暂的呢？那长长久久的只能是对婚姻的责任感，对亲情的妥协。有个作者写到~‘婚姻像个魔咒，用亲情和时间织成一张巨网，让人无处可逃’形容的真贴切。 如果一切能够重来，我会不会重走这条路？或许我还会。我本来对爱情都是包着冒险的精神。没付出那会有收获？而且重感情的我，很乐意把利益摆旁边，情字放中间。当年在英国，有个很亲密的好友（至少我当成是）送了个木架给我，当时已要各分杨彪，对这份礼物自然是份外珍惜。费尽心思的带到伦敦机场，可是超重呀！为了好友的纪念品，我付了50 英镑，硬把那个木架十万八千里的搬回马来西亚。前天我在IKEA看到了这个熟悉的木架，标价RM49。我既然为了重情义花了六倍的价钱千辛万苦的把它带回来，相信好友也只是嫌难处理才给了我。一相情愿的盲目相信爱情和友情，到头来人财两失，遍体鳞伤时也只能怪自己太过~~~迷信。

Emptiness

Ah Ci is following her daddy back to hometown tonight. I just can't help when she said ' mum promise me you won't cry when I am not around" Tears flow out of my eyes vulnerably.Not being used to sleep without her beside me. Life is an emptiness when my little princess is not around.

Hope I can sleep well, and God please guide them of safety to the destination.

I miss you so deeply my girl.

如果能了解

如果能了解，那现在也不用多说，

如果现在还要说，那也证明永远也不会懂。。。

十年，从朋友中学来的一句话，‘人能有多少个十年？’

十年不长也不算短，刚刚好把我的青春花断。

一千块，很常不经意就花掉了一千块，但这个一千块，

我花的心好痛，你或者到现在还是不了解。

一千块如果拿来烧掉的感觉，那你应该会体会20%我的无奈。

一首歌好像唱过：‘最遥远的距离，不是你离我很远，

而是我在你前面，你也感觉不到我的悲伤。。。‘

俩个不同世界的人，生活在同一个时空里。。。

这种感觉经历过的人才懂。

原谅我吧！无情是没了感情，

当爱变成了伤害，距离会是很好的疗伤济.

风吹过了无痕，花儿谢了也曾经灿烂过，

那么有一天，你被幸福环绕着，那你会谢谢我吗？

我不敢问。。。因为我心中已有了答案，

如果能了解，我们不会各自来到这个终站。

SS15 Asia Cafe 中华小炒

Located inside AsiaCafe SS15

Clayplate Sweet & Sour Japanese Taufu RM4.80 + rice

French beans chinese fried style really delicious cost RM4.80 + rice

Fuyong egg RM4.80 + rice

Total price of this dinner for 2 adult and one kid is RM 14.40!!

When a shop really serious in providing good food and fighting inflation at a place like Subang Jaya, this is something to blog about !

Pulau Ketam

when you feel you love someone, you must said it out loud, otherwise the moment just passes you by...

Durian Durian

Finally, we beat Thailand for the quality. We beat Singapore for the price and variety. We conquer the market and we monopoly. The western can't have it because it only grow in the tropical country.The Hongkie mad about it....No, not only D24!! we have Raja Musang, Bamboo leg, Merah, Red Prawn, Kampung, XO,
and no no, I am not talking about alcohol....You either love it or you hate it, there is no neutral area.The Chinese, Taiwanese have to taste it,no no don't eat those from Thailand, it is artificial.
Who said Malaysia is technically poor? we have the genius to produce THE BEST DURIAN

Typhoon Conson

Typhoon Conson is approaching Hainan Island, after devastated Philipine into a flood hell, now it is estimate to exagerate further to bring threat to the main land China especially Guang Tong province. For update satelite view of Conson :-Click here This few days ever since I booked my parent a Taiwan trip during this August I am overweigh with nightmare of Taiwan being blow off by typhoon during this August season. I should have done my searching earlier, the second half of the year is the rainning and typhoon season in all countries like Taiwan, Japan, Philipines,HongKong, China...I as a Malaysian of course due to our peaceful weather all years round never realise how lucky we really are, until I book the Airasiago trip, damn Airasiago website, they should have warming people of this, they should be more informative to the consumer, you don't actually think they are innocent in these!? I follow the website of typhoon prediction, and is watching closely the daily progress how the typhoon Conson develop in the middle of Pacific Ocean in 12/7/2010 and slowly progress itself into tropical storm and then face-off as the dreadful tropical cyclone and pass through Philipines in 14/7/2010 and causing a huge lost to the country and now actively intensifying in its way to South China Sea. Yet it did not stop there, it continues its journey toward the China, tonight, it is going to land on Hainan Island and all the fishing boat had stop sailling. Disasters like this teach those country citizen to appreciate our earth and our life more preciously. Of course as a Malaysian, I never realised. What I only can hope now even there is more typhoon developed, I selfishly wishes that it will bypass Taiwan Island and make it safer during my parent trip there.

Ah Min 说世杯决赛

这两只队伍，一支是由俩个豪门弃兵的十号Wesley Sneijder,与十一号的Ruben为支柱的荷兰，一支是华丽的西班牙。橙色小国对垒足球大国西班牙，如果荷兰胜出，那可是小兵立大功，像童话故事的令人振奋。可能为欧洲的经济低迷带来正面的影响。

荷兰是赛前没被看好的队伍，但续伟大的巴西与阿根廷都泪泣球场，荷兰已渐入头角，Sneijder 实力爆发，近几个月来已经帮国际米兰赢了几个国际荣誉。当初把他卖掉的皇马球会会不会用当初卖掉他的十倍价钱买回他？当然年轻又面相老陈的十一号Ruben也是大功臣，世杯荷兰夺不夺冠，这俩个26 岁的小子，也已明扬四海，身价百倍。

西班牙有人把他比喻为mercedes 骄车，名贵而实际，应该可以走到最后，这支对伍多个球员来至豪门球会，身价非凡，个个传球，射门，看守，团队精神都是一流水准，如果真输给荷兰，也应该是造化弄人，上帝开玩笑，mercedes掉入小水沟，天意天意。

这样一场比赛，你希望谁会胜出？喜欢童话成真的人希望橙海淹没斗牛士，青蛙变王子。我本人不喜欢超现实戏集。实力加明牌的组合，一分钱一分货的漂亮西班牙，加油！

看保罗天才八爪鱼的预测：------


2010 年的世杯，好精彩！

好歌

作詞：姚若龍 作曲：蕭煌奇 沒那麼簡單 就能找到 聊得來的伴 尤其是在 看過了那麼多的背叛 總是不安 只好強悍 誰謀殺了我的浪漫 沒那麼簡單 就能去愛 別的全不看 變得實際 也許好也許壞各一半 不愛孤單 一久也習慣 不用擔心誰 也不用被誰管 感覺快樂就忙東忙西 感覺累了就放空自己 別人說的話 隨便聽一聽 自己作決定 不想擁有太多情緒 一杯紅酒配電影 在周末晚上 關上了手機 舒服窩在沙發裡 相愛沒有那麼容易 每個人有他的脾氣 過了愛作夢的年紀 轟轟烈烈不如平靜 幸福沒有那麼容易 才會特別讓人著迷 什麼都不懂的年紀 曾經最掏心 所以最開心 曾經 沒那麼簡單 就能去愛 別的全不看 變得實際 也許好也許壞各一半 不愛孤單 一久也習慣 不用擔心誰 也不用被誰管 感覺快樂就忙東忙西 感覺累了就放空自己 別人說的話 隨便聽一聽 自己作決定 不想擁有太多情緒 一杯紅酒配電影 在周末晚上 關上了手機 舒服窩在沙發裡 相愛沒有那麼容易 每個人有他的脾氣 過了愛作夢的年紀 轟轟烈烈不如平靜 幸福沒有那麼容易 才會特別讓人著迷 什麼都不懂的年紀 曾經最掏心 所以最開心 曾經 相愛沒有那麼容易 每個人有他的脾氣 過了愛作夢的年紀 轟轟烈烈不如平靜 幸福沒有那麼容易 才會特別讓人著迷 什麼都不懂的年紀 曾經最掏心 所以最開心 曾經 想念最傷心 但卻最動心 的記憶

女人、足球

女人不用有很好的IQ,但一定要有美貌。

男人英俊不一定找到吃，女人漂亮一定有钱。

足球不只属于男人的。但男人专迷足球赛。

这与男人迷恋女人一样，短暂的兴奋，高潮起伏，
夜夜不同刺激，不同的快感。

在男人的眼里，女人只能和足球并列。

可悲！

I would vote BN if......

首相拿督斯里納吉強調，第10大馬計劃的重點是國家改革，所有力量及思想都必須朝向2020宏願，因此，此計劃將分成十大目標，並由5大主要策略去落實。

他透露，第10大馬計劃首先要做到的就是配合外國環境推動本地經濟，接下來就是以多元化優勢成為國際平台中成功的因素、通過專注領域改革國家為高收入國家、通過生產力及創新取得增長、培訓及吸引優秀的專才、確保所有族群獲得公平的機會、全面發展及專注成長、支持有效的知識分享、珍惜天然資產，以及政府或公司都擁有競爭力。

this is smooth to the ears, but without any foundamental change to the current policy. Is that possible?

ULU YAM -Nature is right at your door step

Where is it?
Ulu Yam town is a 30 minutes drive of local kampung road from the Batu Cave town which is within easy reach of Kuala Lumpur.If you are driving from Klang Valley, using the LDP and turn to the Batu Cave sign board and follow Ulu Yam signboard after that.

Ulu Yam old town

what to see?
The green and peaceful surrounding, the water reservoir/dam of Ulu Yam and the easy access waterfall and the hand made noodle making. Or perhap rubber trees and rubber milk collecting process?

worker collecting rubber milk

what to eat?
of course the Loh Mee which is famous for is black vinegar taste and handmade noodle which is so different.The one which Ho cyak visiting is the last one at the old Ulu yam town as the photo below:-

what to do?

Fishing at the dam/water reservior. Chilling bath and picnic at the waterfall. Finding your favourate Loh Mee, as there are few shops offering Loh Mee.

Big catch!

Not to forget

Bring an empty big big bottle to store a taste of the Ulu Yam mountain Spring water which is along the road, as its rumour can revitalise the body and cure the sickness away.It is also tested by the MOH for safety drink.Look at the picture below:-

Advice:-

Not to visit the waterfall at rainy day as the path to the fall is quite small and at low level area which is easily flooded.Well,you don't want to flood your car of course!

放手-很沉迷这首歌的境界

G11 production

Sky

Pond

waterfall

bottle

sunset shadow

flower

macro grass

leave bokeh

save water

Famous 品珍云吞面

简单又好吃的品珍云吞面

浓浓药材鸭腿汤

地址在:-kota kemuning after Mcdonald third junction turn right (opposite lake around shoplot)

太饿了，吃了一半才想起要拍照

云吞里有虾哦！

满座

价钱表

Proudly present my new G11

Let's celebrate life ! Sometime a new thing is always a plus. Very soon I will have test photo coming up the blog.Stay tune.

庙

我喜欢幽香的那股味道，它让我感到有安全感，与平静。好像是在庙里一样，我住在公寓里头，很少有机会嗅到松香的味道，今天我闻到了。。。

现代华人很少机会去庙，因为我国的政府没给于庙宇拨款。城市的人又自顾自的忙的忙，不像在乡村里头的乡亲父老，能有钱出钱，有力出力的把一所庙建起来。

正信的佛教固然正信，华人不再建庙来幕拜神明，反而建佛教会所在店屋里头，活像基督教会所的。

未来，我们的庙会否消失呢?我很关心。为什么我们不能维持华人到庙里幕拜的传统。毕竟我们已经五千年都延续了这个传统，就当成是我们华人聚集的地方，找回一些安全感与慰藉。还有享受幽香的那份感觉，阿Q的相信神明正在苛护着我。

致~我最亲爱最重要的婆婆，

你的恩亲比天高，没有你的我没有快乐的童年，不可能好好的长大，
童年的每一个愉快时光，都有你的参于，当了人家的妈妈，更加明白这不是偶然，第一次把你气哭的时，我哭得一生人第一次的痛哭。

中学时对学校的失望，赌气的旷学，你从没唠叨与责备，苦口婆心，用心良苦。重达入学府的我比别人更发愤图强，很多外面的压力，如果没家人老师无限量支持，我做不到，大学毕业，你远到英伦为我祝贺，见证你从小带大不离不弃的孙子终于出头的一天。那时你笑得比我还开心。

几年前，七十高龄的你长途跋涉的从老远来为我做月，其中的辛苦可想而知。那时的我无以为报，感触良深。现在八十高龄的你为我做的已经太多太多，但是每当你有机会逗留在我家，我的衣橱都被你整理的整整齐齐，大概在你心里我永远都是长不大的小孩。


你永远永远是我最敬爱的婆婆.

Sunday Market

我很喜欢去菜市场，因为那里的朝气，整个市区充满活力，每个人都在挑三拣四，找寻心中的美食疏菜。

经过两个小时的加工，我的产品。。。

罗卜猪骨汤+朝洲蒸鱼+咸鱼芽菜