无奸道

有一个人有一天上班，发现她的老板发现了一件他不可能会发现的事, 这件事只有她的朋友知道,如果有其它人知道,那里由很简单, 她有一个朋友变了节，出卖了她。 痛心的是，她不晓得是谁?所有的朋友表现的络无其事，她只能暗暗怀疑是某某人。怪就怪自己，没多花点时间在朋友身上，多了解周围的人，也怪她自己耐不住气，什么都跟人说。 话又说回来，那个背叛她的朋友为了自己利益，把朋友也卖了，可真应该下地狱！从那天起她不再相信每个朋友，她对自己没了信心。一个本来活泼开朗串朋友堆的女孩没了。 无间道本来是指一个是非善恶，忠奸难分的界道，几时我们的世界能有一个无奸道--没有奸人的世道， 每个人都坦诚相处，那该有多好?

How to being Content?

This is a simple topic , everyone can say they are being content with what they had. I have an apartment in USJ, my husband have a semi-D house in Kedah, we have a 5 year's old clever daughter, we are in our middleage, and we have our health in good condition, what left for us for not being content with our life? I feel myself being happy when I go back to my small and comfy apartment everyday after tired work. I am content with I am driving a new 1.6 Proton Persona, who cares people said the seat is not fine, and the car is petrol consuming? So, i am very content with what i had.

But how come everytime when I went to my cousin house seeing his newly renovated double storey house, and his new car Honda Accord. I get this sour feel in my heart keep blaming myself not being able to reach this stage of living standard, and how I wish i could be him. Why is that our heart is alway changing when we see or compare with others achievement? Isn't that i have enough of what I want and need?

There is a truth with this fact. Let me tell you simple illustration, people said life is like walking on a seesaw, when you stand at the left side, you seeing people on the right part is higher than you, so you climb your best to reach the right part-the peak which you always imagine, when you come to the right side, you only realise that you are actually reaching the bottom of you life, sometime it take a lifetime to learn that, we can only go to the peak when we are able to balance ourself in the middle of the seesaw.

So I start trying to balance my life, what is giving me too much pressure to achieve is actually bringing me go down the seesaw, and what is too much relax is the same too. I want to treasure what I can have, can do, can happy with now, at this very moment, and only this very moment is really true to us, the past is the past, the future never happen yet, only this minute when I am typing my feeling hoping that i would get someone notice and seeing deep inside me, and that I could get some responce or to change someone opinion with my view.Then this minute is meaningful for me.

Last but not least, do not compare with others. They are not you, and they have their path to go.

I learn that being content is being content with yourself.

Bagan Lalang, where is the Gold?

This weekend as my hubby mood is good, so I propose a trip to nearby visitor spot, like the beach etc, I had in my mind to get a sunset photo for my album so I choose the Bagan lalang beach as the spot to get a clear photo. My hubby said the name is actually Gold Coast, huh, Gold Coast not in Australia meh? Shy la, want to tell people we are going to Gold Coast, better tell is bagan lalang la. Since they are free seat in the car, i invite my parent to go together for them to fight off the boreness to look after baby all day inside a 9 storey apartment. Searching from google reveal that the distance is about an hour + journey to reach there, so i approximate the timing, and decide to depart at 4pm about time to reach there by 5.30pm to get the shoot. Everything went on smoothly, except when our car come to the roundabout for KLIA, we turn into the wrong direction which bring us further down to Banting road, that take us about extra another hours to reach only Morib Beach. Since already there, we just go for some walk along the beach, first impression is how come the beach got no beach, i mean, no white sand, just brick and water.... A lot of the people is fishing there, thinking it should be a nice fishing spot.Some camera man, took a very huge camera, look like professional photographer is standby there. Mmm, may be i come to the right site. But it is not sunset yet, the sun is still bright up in the sky. Further down the road, about 37km we reach Bagan Lalang beach, it is a nice white wide beach with flat sandy beach. Great spot for Sunset view. Why did they name it Gold Coast?Is it because the sand is golden color? I found out the answer is negative, it is just white and soft enough compare to those in Port dickson. May be because the sun is golden enough. It is so romantic if walking on the beach hand in hand with your love one.

I have fun taking photos with my Samsung camera, testing the effect, and images caught. After about 45 minutes of enjoying the seaview, we go on to try the seafood at the nearby floating restaurant.The food taste just nice, but they charges a price not equal to the local standard, i can get it in Subang at the almost same price. Not bad for a weekend getaway though.

To Travel or no travel

I remember I was always in the mood of traveling,visiting. When I was in University I am always planning to go some place during weekend, I like to explore things, I am so ethusiastic to explore new place be it a mountain, castle, island, old building, garden park etc I think I spend 40 percent of my time in Britain for travel, beside study and sleep. Back to Malaysia, it is like a fairy drop to the real world, it is work and work all the times, once in a bluemoon during weekend, we got to travel to some near distance from Kedah to Hatyai Thailand to bigger my frog-eye-view of the so call Man's heaven on earth, for me it is a near Hell in real life for those desparate young girl who serving those immoral beast buying sex and drinking alcohol altogether, man like to talk business there.(i never understand why) When I see some blogs, the blogger almost visit one country oversea every year, I am so envy so wishes that it is me. My single friend did that every year too. Ah Ci is born in 2004, from then onward, my passport never get any more new immigration stamp until it is expired this year. Poor me, I should go somewhere, I need to revitalise what is in my mind, I need to breath the outside new air, recharged the spirit, I should not forgoten about the passion of me for explore, to appreciate the architectual design of building, to be overwhelmed by the power of nature, and breathtaking sketch out of God on the skyline, and the heartwarming beautiful sunsets.... The big question is where should i go?? what have I miss after all this years??

Life and Death

I am struggling of putting this serious topic in my second posts, yet it is things which is troubling me this few days.My grandmum's 80 years old sister is having serious condition after falling in her bathroom recently. She is in the intensive care unit for days, her condition is worsen, my grandmum decide to visit her, may be for the last time in her life. The next day when my grandmum left for hometown, i fall sick, first by flu due to infection, next by sore throat, then the miss consumption of antibiotic, induced gastric, i was in bed for two days. Now, anyone can tell me what is life? It is so easily taken just like that. The stop of heartbeat, the lost transmittion of brain cells and that is call death. I read a book from Tibetan about life and death, it said death is just a path which you have to pass thru when you are transform to another form of life, according to buddhism, there are many stage of life, reincarnation, which mean if you eat pig in this life, you might become a pig in your next life. If buddhism is true, that mean Death is the beginning to next life, and Life is the beginning of the death, so what is to celebrate when we have a new baby born in this world? and why we are so sad when somebody pass away? I so like this theory.

ok, now i got a name set for my blog...

Long ago i tell my facebook friend that i will start my blog , so to start ,actually i do not have anything to write on the blog tonight , yet i should start something , walking miles startes from first steps...so here i go,...should i use english or mandarin? well, both also 'half basin water', if i want to write in english i might need to buy a dictionary first to accompany me, who want to read a blog with out understand what the blogger want to say....if i write in mandarin, then i might need to bring my primary school teacher sitting here with me...hai, all the education system's faults, study primary school in mandarin, secondary school in bahasa, college in english, now i got my education background introduced.